a very important lesson that i learned in 2010:
never give permanent importance to that which is ultimately temporal. and never confuse a resource as your source. for me, that temporal resource was music in 2010.
i strongly believe that music is a gift from GOD. but i spent so much time obsessing over music that i ultimately edged GOD out of the picture. and i became severely burnt out from music in the process, overextending myself with various reviews, podcasts and otherwise.
i should be willing to sacrifice much more for GOD than i do for music. there are nights that i forsake sleep to write reviews and edit podcasts, but i won’t give GOD five minutes of my time. how did i not expect to get burnt out when i refuse to put Him first? how can i complain about not being able to deal with music during daytime hours as a way to earn a living when GOD knows that He can’t give me that life right now, especially when i’m not willing to put music aside to put Him first?
what i’m saying is this: music didn’t die on a cross for me. and i can no longer afford to love the gift more than i do the Giver. it doesn’t mean that my podcast is coming to an end, nor does it mean that i can’t write reviews anymore. what it means is that music as a whole has to play second fiddle in my life to GOD. i want to get to a place where i want to know more about Jesus Christ than anything else…including music. that’s a place i’ve never been before. and this is the challenge that awaits me in 2011.
i’m getting to the place where i can honestly say that if you didn’t die on a cross for me and you didn’t get up and wreck your own funeral three days later, then i really don’t owe you a damn thing. i couldn’t say that around this time last year.
and that’s how i know i’m doing the right thing for once…